I am going to share with you the main thing that I have learned on the two month course called “The Intensive” at ‘The Awakened Life Project’ in Portugal:
Let me give you some background – ‘The Awakened Life Project’ is a project and a community that is committed to evolving consciousness. Yes you read that right Evolving Consciousness! Most spiritual and or philosophical teaching only go as far as you becoming aware of your thoughts and feelings and knowing that you create your own suffering. However ALP urges you to go beyond this teaching to a point where you know this so clearly that you live it everyday and you create something new in yourself and the world. In another blog I will write more about this.
The Intensive is facilitated by Pete and Cynthia Brampton and based in and supported by the ALP community. On ‘The intensive’ a group of people who do not know each other and have never met before come together to live, learn, develop and co-create with each other. I have always felt a little uncomfortable in groups and especially when I do not have a certain role to play. What was even harder was that we were a a group of 6 women and more or less spent 24/7 with each other. So ‘The Intensive’ was really intense!
I learnt a lot and I will share this with you another time. What I learnt the most was this:
In meditation one morning the message I received was “let the love out”, it was the mistakable voice of my higher self, so I allowed myself to sit with the fullness of the message.
My mind remind me of what I hear a lot of people say about me – that I am kind and generous, some say loving. However, what many people say they first experienced about me is that I am very straight forward and to the point. Often their perception of this is that it is harsh and some say a little aggressive. Which was not at all my intention or how I thought I was being. My intention was to be clear so their would be clarity and ease in the communication.
I have felt that people have felt uncomfortable with me. I have also noticed many times that I am some how not able to experience the love I have inside in my relationships with other people. Than at other times I have experienced the love being very present between me and the person I am with.
What I have realised on The Intensive was that I was running a mental, psychological program in which I was always protecting myself, being cautious and holding back the true expression of my being as I believed that there was someone who was waiting to attack me or gain something from me. This would at best bring me into doubt and I would feel lost or at worse I would act out of fear and be quiet and distant or aggressive. In another words I was not allowing the love that I feel for people, life and nature to flow freely through me and out of me.
It is ironic because to share, receive and give LOVE is all I have ever wanted to do and this has always been a strong intention and value for me. Yet I could not always do this!
What I know now is that Love is all there is, Love is Consciousness and Consciousness is Love and you, me, everyone and everything is Love – is Consciousness. This is what we all need to Wake Up to and allow the Love to come in, go through and go out of us. There is no need to hold onto Love (or anything else for that matter) or what or who you perceive gives you Love because YOU ARE LOVE, YOU ARE CONSCIOUSNESS.
If I am feeling or acting out of anything that is ‘not’ love than I am acting out of a feeling / sense of a lack of love.
Fear is the most extreme lack of love and also the most common.
I promise myself that I will go forward in love and that I will trust life to show me where I can give the most love.
If you are ready to be challenged, be uncomfortable and learn about who you really are this is for you.
If you want to be free more than anything else than the intensive is for you.
I recommend it and Be warned it is intense!
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