At the Festival of Enlightenment three unrelated people said to me, on different occasions,
“Why are you holding back. You’re greatest assist is your straight forwardness, the way you see right through the crap and can deliver the message with so much clarity.”
I have been told all my life not to be so blunt, rude. This has hurt so much through all my life because I was not trying to be like this. This is just the way I am made. It was coming from my heart; I was open to what I was seeing – what was really there. I did not, naturally, get caught up in all the emotion, projection, masks and falseness.
In fact, I think I did not even see this until I let family and friends convince me of my wrong doings and show me how I could fit in, have more friends and be more liked. What then happened is that I saw the world through more of their eyes and the light sparkle in mine started to fade, until I became depressed.
It was not until I studied Crainosacral Therapy that I realised that I had shut down my ‘gifts’ and started to re-open them.
I choose to see the energy in everything the way it is and not be attached to it; or to dress it up in any way that may leave room for manoeuvre and misunderstandings. I choose to live the truth of how it appears to be.
This may not be your truth. However, it will open what is the truth in you, if your prepared to go there and see you, for maybe the first time ever or since you were taught how to see by your family and friends.
I am so grateful to the people in my life that see my heart and see that the only intention I have ever had and will ever have, is for people to let go of that which keeps them from loving themselves and then be able to start to love themselves.
Your truth lies within You. Not in others perception or projection of you. You are unique the way you see the world is meant for your eyes only. You contain your own gifts that light up the world and add to it in the only way you can.
If you are living like I was, according to social rules and trying to conform you may never know who you are. You may never know what it is like to feel the sun on your face and know that you are home, when you are content in yourself being and living yourself: that is your truth.